May 18, 2025

Telepathy and Autism


[Author’s Note. This is a two-part blog. It would be best for you to read the first part and listen to the video whose link I have provided before going on to read the second part of this blog.]

Have you heard of The Telepathy Tapes? If not, you’re about to. I keep being urged by various professional friends of mine to listen to them, but I’ve always been too busy with more important things, such as filing my nails and remembering to take my inhaler, so as to continue breathing. However, after reading the following enthusiastic recommendation from a good friend of mine, I decided to put my nail clippers aside and listen to the first episode. Here’s what my friend sent to me to get me to sit on my duff and lend an ear, actually two, to a really amazing and provocative podcast…

I have been incredibly inspired over the last two weeks listening to all 10 one-hour episodes of The Telepathy Tapes. The host Ky Dickens describes how she embarked on a heart and mind-bending journey into the mysterious world of telepathy in non-speaking individuals with autism

She features personal stories and expert interviews, uncovering a phenomenon she never thought possible. Through a mix of personal anecdotes, scientific exploration, and interviews with experts like Dr. Diane Hennacy Powell, a Johns Hopkins-trained neuropsychiatrist, she unpacks the mysterious connection between parents and their non-speaking children who seemingly can read minds

The first episode takes you on a journey across the globe, meeting families who have experienced this phenomenon firsthand. These interviews bring listeners into a world where telepathy may not just be possible, but commonplace. 

This opens up a conversation about the potential of the human mind that mainstream science has largely ignored, inviting us to reconsider everything we thought we knew about communication and consciousness. So inspiring!!! And as word of this spreads rapidly, this has the potential to be a profoundly inspiring game-changer. I can't recommend these interviews highly enough.

You can find the first episode here:


All 10 episodes can be found at:


The first episode in the series takes about 45 minutes. Like most podcasts, it has a series of annoying commercial interruptions, but you can click on them to skip them. So, when you have the time, sit back and enjoy learning about the connection between autism and telepathy.

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The first person (of three who almost insisted that I stop what I was doing and start listening to The Telepathy Tapes is a dear friend of mine named Deb. I knew that she had raised an autistic child, and that he had exhibited some evidence of telepathy or other paranormal abilities. So, when I decided to write this blog, I asked Deb if she would be willing to describe some of her experiences with her son, Patrick.  

What follows is her account of some of these uncanny experiences. I hope they will intrigue you and induce you to listen to more of these Telepathy Tapes about this fascinating phenomenon.

Patrick is my beloved "bonus" son, who I have raised, together with my husband, Bob, since he was a little tyke. He is now 34, and has been one of the greatest spiritual teachers in my life. He was largely non-verbal in his younger years, and it was then that he began to teach me how to communicate soul-to-soul. No words necessary. Just deep feeling, tuning in, and somehow reading the intuitive and spiritual cues that most of us verbal folk miss on a regular basis. For Patrick, speech was often not only confusing, but a distraction from his uncanny ability to tune into the most important things - that were felt, and not spoken - largely by the unseen world.

The first time his "sixth sense" gifts became crystal clear to me was at about age 8. I had retrieved a robin's nest that had fallen from a tree in front of our house during a storm, and brought it into the house to show it to him and have him touch and hold it. I then read him a story from the library about how mother robins built their nests, laid their brilliant blue eggs inside, and hatched their young. He watched and listened intently, but responded only with one word: "eggs." This one word made me very happy. At least it was a word, and he spoke. 

Over the next few days, we read the story several more times, and the nest continued to fascinate him. He stared and stared at it. It was what followed next that was something I will never forget. He gently pulled me by the hand to lead me outside (as he often did when he wanted something but could not communicate in words) - and led me to the underside of our deck in the backyard. There was nothing under the deck except some old gardening equipment of my Dad’s, and was not a place that we ever took Patrick to play. It was an unfinished area, muddy, and dark. He looked at me with wide eyes and repeated that one word: "eggs." 

I didn't know quite what to make of this, looked around, and saw nothing. I asked him what he wanted, as his receptive vocabulary always far exceeded his expressive vocabulary, and he then pulled my hand again, this time leading further under the deck to a corner where the muddy ground met the concrete foundation. I was more than a bit confused, and then I saw them: tiny blue robin's eggs, cracked, with sadly no viable chicks. I was stunned - not only because he led me there after touching the nest and hearing the story - but because the tree from which I had retrieved that nest was in the front of the house, and nowhere near that area. 

Of course these were eggs from a different nest, I thought, and I was happy because he was making an important connection between the nest, the story, and the eggs. But how did he know that those cracked blue eggs were there, in the dark corner of that muddy spot under our deck, where he never, ever went? Not only did he never go there, but it was quite difficult to even reach, and we kept him out of the yard most of the time anyway as he often "eloped," wandered, and had wandered off in the woods behind our house in the blink of an eye many times. Still quite startled, I led him back inside the house. After we were back inside, he insisted (again by pulling my arm towards the direction he wanted to go, this time more forcefully) that we put the nest (which he had picked back up) out onto our upper deck, and repeated the word "eggs."  

I tried to explain to him that mother birds liked to choose where they put their nests, that there was no tree there, and that the nest would be unprotected and would probably blow away. "Eggs," he repeated. 

I smiled, and we came back inside. Later that evening, my husband moved the nest up onto the railing of the deck, so that we could sweep the endless number of Maple "helicopter" seed pods that had whirled their way onto our deck that Spring. That was that - or so we thought.  

Patrick watched that nest each and every day, apparently hoping that a mother bird would take up residence in his nest, and lay her eggs there. Although endearing, it was almost painful to watch at times, as no mother robin in her right mind was going to lay a clutch of eggs in that location, and my husband and I secretly hoped that the wind would blow it away and it would be "out of sight, out of mind," so to speak. That was our mistake. 

Close to two weeks passed. Through wind, rain, and many more Maple helicopter pod aerial "bombings," that nest never moved more than an inch or two, and we could not explain it. There it sat, as if glued by some invisible force to the top of the deck railing. Patrick watched it each and every day. He just stared and stared at it, looking up to the sky every now and then as if to catch a glimpse of the mother bird that he desperately hoped would finally come flying by to determine that Patrick's recycled nest was acceptable, and lay her eggs there. Day after day he silently watched. 

One morning, I went upstairs after my morning coffee to wake him up for school. He opened his big blue eyes, smiled from ear to ear, and said, "eggs." His smile made my heart sing because he often did not smile or show positive emotion outwardly. Patrick ate very few foods at that time, so he was clearly not asking me for eggs for breakfast, as he never ate them. I smiled a big smile back at him, gave him a tight morning hug, and started to try to get him dressed for school - but he was not having any of it. He started screeching, moaning, flapping his hands (which he often did when he was excited, agitated, or frustrated), and loudly repeating the word "eggs" while insistently pulling me down the two flights of steps from his bedroom to our deck.  

"Eggs!" he yelled, sounding quite excited this time, looking again at his beloved nest. I gasped when I saw what I thought was absolutely impossible! A mother robin, sitting, quite contently, on "eggs." Tears of joy came rushing down from my eyes. I could hardly believe what I was seeing, and, more importantly, what I was feeling. How did this mother robin choose this "fixer-upper" nest that was sitting right there, out in the open, no tree in sight, completely unprotected by anything at all? But more importantly, as with the remnants of the cracked blue eggs under our deck, how did Patrick know they were there that morning? How did he know that she was there? 

Although we were able to see glimpses of the eggs underneath her, and watched her intently with Patrick every day, we never saw them hatch or fledge. We came home one day after a bad rainstorm, and the nest was just gone. Although we looked and looked, we could find nothing, and never knew what became of them. But the bigger question in our minds was exactly how Patrick had "known" all of this. We could not explain it then, and we cannot explain it now - at least not completely. We just knew, that he knew. And if this seems extreme, I would be the first to agree that it was. 

I believe, however, that Patrick's strong intuition and ESP had likely been a part of his inner life for quite some time, but we were unaware of his experiences as there was no way he could tell us about them. We simply had to be led by the arm, by Patrick, and shown. Something "extreme" was needed to get our attention. This was the first of many times over the years to come, that Patrick "led" us to things he intuitively knew, especially about the natural world around him, as well as the humans that he could not communicate with verbally. At that time, he could not speak much at all, spell, count, or dress himself, did not use a communication device (these were not nearly as commonly used then as they are now), was still in diapers, and could not do much of anything else that a neurotypical 8-year-old could do, but he could do that. It wasn't wishful thinking. He really did that.

This opened our eyes and hearts to many other similar experiences, both big and small, over the coming years. We kept journals about everything regarding Patrick's in-home behavioral program, the team we had hired, and the expert autism consultants we searched for around the country who were few and far between back then. We made it a point after the "sixth sense eggs occurrence" as we called it, to add entries about many of these "anomalous" experiences. This came naturally to us given our academic training, as did a healthy amount of skepticism, but over the years, Patrick made believers out of us.

May 11, 2025

Why Nietzsche Wept and Why We Don’t

By Kenneth Ring, Ph.D.

[Author’s Note. Recently, in writing to a new friend about the problem of empathy, I was reminded of this blog from a few years ago, but also for reasons that will become clear, because her father had loved going to the track for watch horse races. And, finally, this blog makes reference to some of the books I wrote about last week and provides further information about them.]

God blessed them, and God said to them, “Be fruitful and multiply, and fill the earth and subdue it; and have dominion over the fish of the sea and over the birds of the air and over every living thing that moves upon the earth.”  

I haven’t been able to go to a zoo for many years. I just can’t stand to see animals penned up or in cages. Even when artificial environments or islands are created for them to give them a little more space to pad around, they are obviously still confined. However delighted children may be to see the animals in their storybooks alive and at close range, from the perspective of the animals themselves who are often bored or dozing in the sun (at least when the sun is shining), they are still inhabiting an open-air prison. Are human prisoners, when they are allowed to go out in their yards for an hour of exercise, any less free than when in their cells? Honestly, I don’t see how any adult visiting a zoo can feel anything but shame and revulsion. Of course, I realize that most adult visitors do not feel any such thing when they wander about gawking at encaged or otherwise imprisoned animals. It’s easy to banish any disquieting thoughts when you see monkeys frolicking about on the trees inside their cages, apparently having a good time. Why shouldn’t you enjoy watching their antics? 

But to me, this just shows a blatant if habitual failure of empathy. We view animals from our own privileged perspective as human beings free to move about as we like and, later, to leave them behind as we head for own homes. But what do the animals feel?

We can turn to literature, to fiction, to get some idea. For example, about ten years ago, by chance, I happened to pick up a book by an author, Benjamin Hale, of whom I had never heard. The book was called The Evolution of Bruno Littlemore. It turned out to be the absolute best book I had read in recent years. It tells the story of an encaged chimpanzee named Bruno who is being used for various psychological experiments. At first, he is a brute, a mere beast, covered in his own shit. But one of the psychologist’s assistants takes an interest in Bruno, and believe it or not – remember this is fiction – teaches him to speak. Bruno eventually becomes quite literate. He becomes, if I can put this way, fully human. The assistant, a young woman, even takes him to live with her. (Eventually, he becomes an actor when, after escaping following the woman’s death, he hooks up with a Falstaffian Shakespearean actor.) 

I know this sounds fantastic, and it is of course, but we eventually learn that this book, which is being narrated by Bruno himself who speaks almost as if he is as erudite and articulate as Vladimir Nabokov, is being dictated to a woman named Gwen. At this point, Bruno has been placed in prison. His crime is not having escaped; it is because, in a rage, he has killed the psychologist who, at the beginning of the book, has tormented him with his cruel, self-serving experiments.

But what you learn from this book, which is also riotously funny, is to see the world through Bruno’s eyes, and it is – devastating. What we thoughtlessly do to animals with no regard to their welfare, to treat them as things, not conscious beings like ourselves, for our own ends, now strikes us with the force of a sickening and shocking revelation. 

I was so bowled over by this book, I did something afterward I had never done. I wrote the author a fan letter, and he actually responded with a cordial note of his own. Do yourself a favor, friends. If you have a taste for a Nabokovian fantasy, with a more than a touch of Kafka, drop everything and order a copy from Amazon. You will thank me. It may even change your life. 

Oddly enough, just recently I came across another book by one of my favorite authors, T. Coraghessan Boyle (I call him TCBY), called Talk to Me. It, too, tells the story of a chimp named Sam who becomes literate after he learns to sign. Sam, too, is exploited by an ambitious psychologist who wants to make a name for himself. And as with Bruno, Sam escapes, and after various adventures during which Sam is re-captured and encaged when he again is subjected to the tortured life of a cruelly confined animal (this time by a different psychologist), he is rescued by a woman who has loved him for the start. She is able to abduct him and they come to live together for some time. 

After a time, when Sam is still living with the woman, Aimee, who loves him, Aimee is visited by a priest who has heard about Sam and is curious to meet him. He is thunderstruck by what Sam is able communicate to him.

“That’s fascinating,” he said. “Amazing, really. To think that he can express himself, that he can talk – it changes everything, doesn’t it? The church teaches us that animals don’t have souls, or not immortal souls, in any case, but when you consider Sam … allowances have to be made, don’t you think?”

“Sam has a soul, [Aimee] said. “I’m sure of it.” 

The idyll will have to end badly, of course. What seems to be a farce will culminate in something like a Shakespearean tragedy.

The second psychologist discovers them and comes to take Sam back, but Sam is having none of it. He viciously attacks the psychologist, maims and blinds him, and then runs off. Again, the motive is revenge! As you can imagine, this does not end well for Sam. 

But again, this author has allowed us to see the world through Sam’s eyes. The way humans, especially the men in the book, treat (and mistreat) Sam is revealed as a horror show of heartless exploitation. Aimee’s love, alas, is not enough to save him. Aimee even has to kill him, mercifully with poison, before the authorities arrive to take Sam away, sparing him an even worse fate.

But we don’t have to rely on literature and fantasy to learn the lessons of the need for empathy for the creatures we so routinely and blithely incarcerate but who, unlike Bruno and Sam, must remain mute. They have voices, of course, but they cannot speak their anguish using human language.

Yet there was in fact one in real life who could. Perhaps you are not familiar with a certain inhabitant of the Bronx Zoo who spent some time there more than a century ago.  

His name was Ota Benga. He was a pygmy. If you had been alive in 1906 and living in New York, you could have seen him in a cage where he lived with an orangutan. A sign gave you this information about him:

The African pygmy, Ota Benga,
Age, 23 years. Height, 4 feet 11 inches.
Weight 103 pounds. Brought from
Congo Free State, South Central Africa,
By Dr. Samuel P. Verner.
Exhibited each afternoon during September. 

The Times covered the exhibit’s opening, noting that Benga and the orangutan “both grin in the same way when pleased.” According to an article about Benga:

The Minneapolis Journal decreed, “He is about as near an approach to the missing link as any human species yet found.” [The zoo’s director, William Temple] Hornaday professed to be puzzled by the outrage, explaining that Benga had “one of the best rooms in the primate house.” But the zoo eventually released Benga to an orphan asylum.

Ten years later, Benga committed suicide, shooting himself in the heart. It turned out he was not 23 when he was encaged; he was only 13. So it was when he was actually 23 that he killed himself.

Encaged animals, not being allowed to carry guns, cannot usually find ways to commit suicide. They must live and suffer the indifferent gazes of passerbys or the delighted shrieks of children.

Of course, our unthinking cruelty to animals doesn’t just apply to those we capture from the wild and then imprison to suffer the immiseration of perpetual confinement. No, hardly. Obviously, there are many kinds of animals we humans confine or restrict in other ways or simply use and exploit for our own pleasure or convenience.

Take horses, for example. Certainly, many people who keep horses love and care for them and develop a personal connection to them. In such cases, there is a kind of reciprocity, even if it isn’t between perceived equals.

On the other hand … In recent years, as I have become more infirm and, in consequence, more sedentary, I have spent a lot of time watching television dramas adapted from famous nineteenth century English novels, often courtesy of the BBC. In many of these dramas, we see a team of horses chugging away, mile after mile in all sorts of weather, toting along a young girl on her way to becoming a governess for some well-to-do family. I’m sure you have seen many such programs. Our attention, naturally, is on the young girl, wondering what her future will be. 

But I often think about the horses, all trussed up and shackled to the carriage, who have no say in the matter. I wonder what they are feeling and what they are thinking. I don’t imagine them to be “dumb brutes,” simply submitting in an unconscious way to whatever demands their master may choose to enforce upon them, seemingly oblivious to the welfare of his horses. For him, they are simply there to do his bidding in blind submission to his will. But for me, I can’t help wondering what the horses themselves feel and if they ever, like quadruped slaves, yearn to break free.

Friedrich Nietzsche, the greatest philosopher of his age, was sensitive to the suffering of harnessed horses. You may know the famous story about this philosopher who, one morning early in the year 1889, while taking a walk on the streets of Turin, saw a man flogging his horse. Nietzsche, overcome, went to hug the horse, but broke down completely – and went mad. He was already veering toward madness, but it was seeing the beating of a horse that sent him over the edge into the abyss of lunacy from which he never recovered. He spent the last dozen years of his life lost to this one. The psychiatrist, Irvin Yalom, about whom I wrote in an earlier blog, based one of his best known novels on this incident, calling it When Nietzsche Wept

And then there are race horses. When I was young, I liked to go to race tracks to watch these magnificent animals. But no more. It hurts me to see the jockeys using the whips on their horses, urging them on. Horses clearly love to run and maybe some of them love to win the chase, but have you ever seen one pull up lame? And then we know what is likely to happen to that horse. He or she is done for and will have to be euthanized. Each year, between 2017 and 2019, over a thousand horses died in this way. “The sport of kings” is a blood sport for many horses who have to be sacrificed for our pleasure. We blot these scenes out of our mind and after seeing such a calamity, by the next day we have probably forgotten it. Horse racing continues. See you at the next Kentucky Derby.

I don’t think I have to continue this doleful parade of the way we treat many animals other than our pets. You can think of plenty of examples for yourself. Think of all the cattle we raise, for example, only to be slaughtered. What do they feel when they are being herded into the slaughterhouse? You think they have no idea what fate awaits them? Our relationship to many of the animals we raise for our pleasure can be defined by what I call “the three egregious e’s:” we eat them or exploit them or exterminate them. 

On this last point, we human beings have managed to exterminate or cause to go extinct virtually all large terrestrial megafauna. By the end of the century, the elephants and the rhinos will be all but extinct, and probably the lions and tigers, too. If there is still a survivable world, the children growing up then will do so without having direct knowledge of these animals. Maybe there will still be zoos where a token lion will pad around restlessly in a cage, but otherwise children will only know these animals from reading books, just as today, they have to read books about the bygone bison or passenger pigeon. For many animals, aside from our beloved pets, this world has been and continues to be nothing but an abattoir. 

Elizabeth Kolbert, a staff writer for The New Yorker who specializes in environmental issues, wrote a well-received but depressing book a few years back called The Sixth Extinction. Her wide-ranging research convinced her (and many others, including me) that we are currently witnessing the sixth major die-off in the evolutionary life of our planet. Most people know only one, when the dinosaurs were wiped out about 65 million years ago at the end of the Cretaceous period. But we are, Kolbert avers, definitely in the midst of one now. And from what I’ve read, it is affecting our animal  kin more than us humans. According to recent reports, in the past several decades, human population has doubled whereas animal populations on average have declined almost a staggering seventy percent! Our animals are seemingly disappearing from our earth at an alarmingly accelerating rate.

One writer, whom we shall meet in a subsequent blog, has already sounded the tocsin: 

How are we to recalibrate our relationship with animals that live in complex societies and have a sense of themselves as individuals? The question becomes more urgent as the future of such species grows increasingly perilous. They are penned in, harassed and hunted, subjected to experiments, eaten, used in medicines … We think that, because we found ourselves on this globe, we have a right to use it for our own sustenance. Animals have the same claim. They, too, didn’t choose to be where they are.

It may of course be too late, just as it may be too late to arrest the onset of devastating climate change, but certainly one contributing factor to our present desperate plight has been the persistence of a seemingly ineradicable anthropocentrism that privileges human life above all others. But human beings are not on the top of some kind of imagined evolutionary ladder. Evolution more resembles a bush with many branches rather than a ladder with humans at its pinnacle.

Unfortunately, however, human beings are incontestably the alpha predator on the planet. We have no serious terrestrial predators (it’s only the viruses that can do us in). Some animals, such as bears and tigers, may maul us to death if they get close, but animals don’t have guns, much less missiles and bombs. We can and have killed animals at will and with impunity, often just for sport, and have done an excellent job of destroying their habitats as well. All this is well known. The question is, at this late hour, what can be done?

It occurs to me that in the nineteenth century, we virtually abolished slavery. In the twentieth century, the woman’s suffrage movement finally triumphed. In our own day, we have found our way to begin to protect the members of the LGBTQ community. All of these achievements have been possible because of the extension of legal rights to these populations. And because we need urgently to revision our relationship to our animal brethren, perhaps it’s time to consider in effect a bill of rights for animals.

Animal welfare efforts, while laudable, have failed. Australian philosopher, Peter Singer, whose 1975 groundbreaking book, Animal Liberation, seemed to promise a new day for animals, recently expressed disappointment that his movement, as important has it has been, did not achieve more. We need something more, something more radical, before the door of opportunity closes on our fingers.

Recently, a number of thinkers and animal rights activists have begun to wage a last ditch effort to achieve a meaningful way to establish a moral and legal framework for animals. My next two blogs will explore this new approach for animal justice and we will begin by returning to the Bronx Zoo.  

Here is a preview of who we will be meeting there:  

According to the civil-law code of the state of New York, a writ of habeas corpus may be obtained by any “person” who has been illegally detained. In Bronx County, most such claims arrive on behalf of prisoners on Rikers Island. Habeas petitions are not often heard in court, which was only one reason that the case before New York Supreme Court Justice Alison Y. TuittNonhuman Rights Project v. James Breheny, et al.— was extraordinary. The subject of the petition was Happy, an Asian elephant in the Bronx Zoo. American law treats all animals as “things”—the same category as rocks or roller skates. However, if the Justice granted the habeas petition to move Happy from the zoo to a sanctuary, in the eyes of the law she would be a person. She would have rights.

May 1, 2025

The Reading Life (Continued)


Part II

Years ago, I wrote for and subscribed to a journal of transpersonal psychology that had a section called "What  Our Editors Are Reading." I’m going to borrow a leaf from that journal to tell you what your blogger has been reading of late. So this blog will just be about what I am currently or recently have been reading. Let’s start with the fiction.


This novel tells the story of a light-skinned Black woman whose mother urges her to pass as white so as to reap the advantages of what we today call "white privilege." This was a hard choice for her since her father strongly disagreed with the mother’s wishes, especially since he himself was a vigorous crusader for the rights of Black people. Still, our heroine, named Belle, follows her mother’s advice.

Belle had grown up with a love of fine art and beautiful things. The story is set in the early part of the 20th century in New York. And by a series of remarkable circumstances, she becomes the personal librarian of the famous financier and art collector, J. P. Morgan. In time she becomes indispensable to him in his quest to obtain many treasures for his collection. Over the years, because Belle is attractive, articulate and very witty, she begins to consort and dine with the aristocrats of the city like the Vanderbilts. Morgan, who is married, but has many mistresses, is drawn to our heroine – there is an erotic charge between them – but they never become lovers. Morgan dies without ever learning Belle’s secret.

All this actually happened. It is a matter of history. Belle essentially created the J. P. Morgan Museum as it exists today, and recently there was an exhibition all about her.


This dystopian novel is set in southern California at a fictional college called Santa Teresa, a part of the University of California system, where our heroine named Sarah, who is the narrator of this story, teaches Buddhism. 
 
As the novel opens, we learn that she is fast friends with a fellow Ph.D. candidate named Nathan. They are not lovers, however, because Nathan is celibate for reasons that are unclear. He is an enigmatic man, and although he comes from a wealthy family, he lives a life of poverty, like a monk. What they do together are drugs – cocaine, Ecstasy, Ketamine, acid, you name it.

One day, Sarah goes over to Nathan’s house for one of their rendezvous, but he doesn’t answer the door. When Sarah breaks in, she finds out the reason. Nathan is dead, a needle his left arm (though we learn Nathan is left-handed). Nathan has been murdered. Sarah needs to find out why and who did it.

The story is more than a whodunit, however. The backdrop is the fires that are always burning in California where Sarah feels alienated – she’s from the woods of main, drives a trunk with a gun rack, and is a bad ass.  She has also been raped, knows who did it (he’s still a student at the school), but has never received justice for the crime. There’s a lot about rape and its victims in this novel, and much of it is difficult to read, but gripping.

I won’t divulge more of the story in case you read it. I will just say that this is Christine Murphy’s debut novel, and she is someone to keep your eye on.


This novel has actually been around for a while, and has many thousands of reviews on Amazon, most of them very laudatory, so I decided it might be worth reading.  As with Notes on Surviving the Fire, this dark novel begins with a mystery: A man’s wife has disappeared. She was there last night in their home in Missouri, but in the morning, her husband, Nick, can’t find her anywhere. The whole story revolves around Nick’s search for his wife, Amy. He is desperate to find her.

But after some days of fruitless search, we find ourselves reading excerpts from Amy’s diary, which describe episodes in her marriage to Nick. So, apparently, Amy is alive after all, though still missing. During the course of the novel, from reading Amy’s diary, we learn about how her marriage to Nick when she is at first wildly in love with him gradually curdles, especially after she learns he has been carrying out an illicit affair with a young woman. And to add salt to Amy’s wound, she had already lent him all her money so that Nick could open a bar in town. 

At the beginning of the novel, all our sympathy is with Nick, but over the course of it, we can see why Amy has left the scum she had been married to.  

I won’t say more except this – nothing is what it seems. This riveting book has more twists than a pretzel. It is a helluva good read. I can see why’s been so popular.


A thirty-five-year-old woman named Annie, thirty-seven weeks pregnant, is at an IKEA in Portland, looking to buy a new crib for her expectant baby when, suddenly, out of nowhere, she is knocked to the floor after experiencing a tremendous jolt that shakes the whole building. She is stunned and confused, but is not seriously hurt. She is just trying to gather her wits when a second, more violent shaking occurs. All the lights go out, and screaming is heard throughout the building as people struggle and grope to find their way out away from falling plaster and the bodies of the wounded and the dead.

Obviously, there has been a massive earthquake.

Do you know about the Cascadia subduction zone? It’s an area encompassing northern California, Oregon and parts of Washington. An earthquake there would have a value in excess of 9 on the Richter scale. The 1906 earthquake in San Francisco destroyed the city. An earthquake here would devastate the entire Northwest coast. The last one occurred around 1700. Nobody knows what would happen when the next one will hit this region. But that’s what Annie is about to find out. It happened to occur while she was shopping for a new crib at IKEA.

With the help of the woman who had been waiting on her at the time the earthquake struck, Annie is able to get out. She is injured, but she can walk. But where can she go and how can she get there? She doesn’t have her purse, her phone or her car keys. She has no way to reach her husband, Dom. Outside, she finds an apocalyptic scene, hell on earth, everything destroyed.

She has lost touch with the woman who saved her. She is alone. She begins walking. She wants to try to reach the café where her husband works. 

During the course of the book, we learn a lot about Annie, her husband, and their marriage. But all the time she is walking, walking, walking from the afternoon until night comes when the only lights are from cell phones flashing like lonely beacons to nowhere.

The book is often funny – laugh out loud funny, uproarious – when it isn’t terrifying and heart-wrenching. And what about the baby? I won’t tell you how it ends or if it does. Read it. It may make you quake.

I still read a lot of fiction, but only at night before retiring. I try to keep up on current trends and the latest styles and writers who are blazing new trails in fiction, such as the Irish writer, Sally Rooney. Or the auto-fiction of writers like Rachel Cusk and Sigrid Nunez. I will never run out of books to read until I run out of time.

Non-Fiction


I love reading about explorers and naturalists and, again, I can only envy the lives and adventures they have that I could never hope to emulate or experience for myself. My very favorite naturalist is Alfred Russel Wallace (yes, just one “l” Russel), the co-discover of the theory of evolution, but the one I most admire is the incomparable Alexander von Humboldt who was once the most famous scientist in the world. You can read about the tremendous life he led (he died at 90), and the discoveries he made on his travels that changed our view of nature in Andrea Wulf’s wonderful biography, The Invention of Nature. (By the way of nothing relevant, I adore Andrea Wulf and would propose marriage to her, if I were ever given the chance. She, like her books, is a radiant gem.)

But now I have a new hero – Neil Shubin, the author of the book I am currently reading. He’s a distinguished  professor at the University of Chicago who has spent most of his life exploring the polar regions of the earth, the Arctic and, especially, Antarctica. Not only does he recount of his own explorations and discoveries, but he also gives vivid accounts of previous explorers who lived and sometimes died in the 19th and early 20th century when they made epic journeys to reach to poles. And, by the way, did you know that the south pole sits atop a volcano over 9,000 feet high? Imagine what it took to reach it! A man from Norway, Roald Amundsen, was the first to do so in 1912, breaking the heart of the English explorer, Robert Scott, who arrived at the pole a month  afterward, only to find a Norwegian flag fluttering in the frigid air. What’s worse, Scott and all the members his team perished while making their descent down the mountain.

There is so much of interest in this book about glaciers and the forms of life, ancient (when the south pole was warm) and current that manage to survive there. But there is no room to mention these fascinating findings, especially about the history of lce and its importance in the modern world. You’ll just have to read the book, which I’m now eager to finish.

Just a tidbit here. Did you know that deep under the Antarctic continent there are lakes? And in those lakes there are microbes that have never seen the sun. Some of them can turn off their metabolism for five years and hibernate for all that time. I sometimes wish I could do the same….


I could barely bring myself to read this book. You can imagine how I feel about what’s happened to Gaza and the people who have lived and died there over the last year and a half during Israel’s obscene assault on that forsaken land. But this is only the latest tragedy to strike down the Palestinians who have been trapped there in their open-air prison by a cruel Israeli embargo for many years now. It is unspeakable. Unbearable, even to read about. But we’ve all seen the photos and videos on our screens and TVs. Nothing more needs to be said.

Still, I decided to read this book because I admire the author, some of whose books, both fiction and non-fiction, especially on Buddhism, I had already read.

Still, it was tough going. It’s really a book about the extent to which the modern Western world, especially in the U.S., has had a long history of white supremacy and race-based nationalism. And the extent to which, especially under the administration of Joe Biden and now Donald Trump, we have been complicit with Israel in providing the ordnance, especially our cluster bombs, that the Israeli depend on to commit their acts of savagery against the innocent, mostly women and children. Gaza will never recover.   

Mishra is an intellectual and a gifted writer, but one thing irked me about this book that I hadn’t expected. Some writers wear their learning and erudition lightly. Not Mishra. He is forever quoting other authors, almost as if he wants to show off how widely read he is. 

Still, it’s worth a read if you have the stomach and head for it.


This is a book about one of those mathematical geniuses that I am always in awe of. He’s Roger Penrose, someone I’ve read about for years, so I was psyched to read an entire well researched biography of this man I had long admired. But I was in for a surprise – and a disappointment – when I read it, as I pointed out in a brief review I wrote of the book on Amazon after I had finished it. This is what I wrote:

"The Impossible Man" is a superlative biography of a world-famous mathematical physicist and cosmologist, Roger Penrose, the recipient of the Nobel Prize in 2020 when he was 89.  Widely recognized as a genius, the story of his life, quite apart from recounting his many original contributions to science, is a painfully moving and ultimately very sad, even tragic account of a tormented and deeply troubled man.

The author, Patchen Barss, a science journalist who writes with the hands of a novelist, spent several years in conversation with Penrose and was given access to many of Penrose’s letters, particularly to a succession of women whom Penrose courted as his muse. He needed intimate contact with women with whom he could share his ideas, but none of these relationships could survive his desperate, insatiable need for their love, support and understanding. He burned through them all, and wound up alone in his early nineties, effectively blind, estranged from his family, including his four children, still tinkering with his iconoclastic theories, which appear to indicate that he lost his way down the rabbit hole of his obsessions, few colleagues thought made any sense.

This is a beautifully written book, which honors a great man, but which leaves the reader to ponder the personal cost of pursuing the call of genius, no matter what the consequences. It is a cautionary tale no reader will soon forget.

I recommended the book to a couple of my friends who knew about Penrose and were interested to know what I thought about the book. To one of them, I wrote the following:

The book about Penrose is really worth your time, if you’re interested. There is so much in there about Penrose that is fascinating. For example, from an early age, he was able to think in four dimensions. He was an intensely visual person and thought in terms of shapes, not equations. Like Descartes, Hobbes and Spinoza, he was in love with geometry, which was fundamental to his thought. The book also discusses his rivalry with and envy of Hawking, his friendship with Escher and Escher’s influence on his work, and so many more facets of Penrose’s extraordinary life and achievements in science before he ran off the rails.

I know some of his students didn’t think much of this book, but many of his students — and some of his colleagues — were in awe of him and adulated him. But they only knew the public man. They were not privy to his personal life and to his deep anguish about his relationships with women. But Barss is a sedulous researcher and a gifted writer. He had extensive contact with Penrose over about four years and read all of his letters and correspondence from others. He made himself an expert on Penrose. I think if you read the book, you’d be impressed by it and convinced of the portrait he gives of Penrose.

One of things I found especially moving and so deeply poignant about Penrose is the portrait Barss paints of him in the prologue to his book when Penrose is nearly blind. This is a short excerpt from that prologue:

He willfully ignored medical issues – high blood pressure, macular degeneration, mobility problems, subtle but perceptible cognitive decline – that created challenges for his work and personal life.

He could concentrate when interrupted, but small disruptions could throw him off for hours as he struggled to recover his train of thought. He had increasing difficulty recalling names and words and often grew frustrated with his inconsistent memory….

His eyes had also betrayed him, blurring shapes and obscuring words on the page. He’d had a customized magnifier embedded in the right lens of his thick glasses, and by closing one eye and holding up a paper up to his nose, he could still read. For e-mail and digital publications, he bought the largest computer screen he could find and blew the text up to marque-sized letters. 

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I am about the same age as was Penrose at this time, approaching 90 now. I found this passage extremely hard to read because I’m beginning to have the same kind of visual and cognitive difficulties, though mine are mild compared to his. But my daughter Kathryn is always trying to find devices to help me see better, particularly on my computer, where I often have to increase the font in order to read text on my screen. And just now I am waiting to receive a huge monitor that should increase the size of everything.

I can still read my books, but I have to use a patch over my right eye to do so. I was never a fast reader, but now I read at a glacial pace, and it takes me forever to finish a book!

Fortunately, I can still concentrate, not lose my train of thought, and comprehend well, even though not so well as when I was younger. But increasingly often, I can’t remember how to spell certain words or find the words I want to express myself or remember the names of certain actors, etc. 

So, I have a lot of compassion for Penrose, God bless him. He’s still alive at 93. I can only wonder how he’s doing now.

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Time to start wrapping up this blog. I have just a couple of things to add before doing so.

One is about the books I will never read or finish. There are plenty of them. I remember I stopped reading Moby-Dick on page 338. I never got much farther in Dante’s Divine Comedy than the beginning of Purgatory.

I’ve read only a few of Shakespeare’s plays, always meaning to read more, but never have and never will. I did read The Odyssey and The Iliad, at least. I have a big book of the complete essays of Montaigne, but have only read about fifteen or twenty of them. I read Anna Karenina, but never tackled War and Peace. Or McMurtry’s Lonesome Dove. And most shocking of all, although I’ve read the four gospels, I’ve never read the Bible, aside from dipping into it to read various sections, such as The Book of Job. A scandal, really. What can I say?   

Finally, you ask, what am I reading now? You’ll hate this. Woody Allen’s latest collection of whimsical and really funny Jewish short stories

Yes, I know. Woody has porous boundaries and is always falling for younger women, both in films and in life, it seems. His reputation has certainly been tarnished in recent years, but I have no interest in litigating his character. Many highly creative artists would not win any awards for their character. That’s not the issue here. Let’s not get distracted. Getting back to what I had started to write about his latest book….

The New Yorker writer, Daphne Merkin, who wrote the foreword, says that Woody is as witty and wildly imaginative as ever, and I agree. I may no longer identify as being Jewish, but I have never lost my love for Jewish humor, and Woody is a master of that.

He's the same age as I am - 89. We were born twelve days apart in 1935, but he got there first. In his film, Radio Days, he obviously grew up listening to same pop songs that I did. I identify with the guy. If you ever see his film, Deconstructing Harry, you will understand why. It's a kind of autobiographical film, but it's the story of my life, too. Still, this is a blog about what I’ve been reading, not my life as a film critic! Fortunately, I’m not gonna write a book about my life and crimes, so you won’t have to read that one. Anyway, I’m now written out, so I’m ready to put this blog and myself to bed. Good night, Irene.